Tue Jul 29, 2014, 1:27 PM
Hello hello people q u q
Soooo even though I have quite some stuff to do & draw, I really feel like doing some chibis art trades to get back on track yknow--
Get used to drawing again since I'll finally be on summer break from tomorrow on heh-
I can offer you two different chibi styles:
► I may be [most likely] slow
► I will choose with whom I want to trade [probs gonna note the ones I choose]
► Trade must be fair aka. a single chibi for a single, a couple for EITHER a couple OR two singles
[if you want a couple from me, I'll most likely ask for two singles in return]
► Trades will be done while I also work on personal art
► I will ask you for a MALE! character of mine [since I only have males] so be prepared
So if you're interested in doing a chibi art trade with me, please comment below with the following:
Style I want: [Mini Chibi / Chibi]
No. of Character[s]: [either single or couple]
Ref: [picture! references of the character(s) you want me to draw]
Brief! info: [main personality traits / relationship / anything I need to know to draw them correctly / pose or expression preferences]
My examples: [link me to some examples of the chibis you'd draw for the trade]
Idk I'm probs gonna pick someone tomorrow q v q
Thank you all for your interest in advance! ; x ; ♥
Sat Jul 26, 2014, 7:20 PM
Hnn-- I just wanted to say a BIG THANK YOU to all those lovely comments you guys left to cheer me up or help me get through this without stressing ; x ;
Tbh only posting this journal and getting this off my chest already helped a lot, surprisingly--
I feel--- a little lighter-- and maybe that's the way of getting back to my old creative self haha--
But then-- reading all those comments aah-- it really made me feel all fluffy and warm mmh-- //////
I'm really really thankful that you all took the time to share your thoughts on this and I apologize that I won't reply everyone seperately-- so I thought I should still thank you like this q o q
I'm gonna try my best to just ride this out and see where it leads me-- your comments and getting this off my chest already made me feel a lot better, so maybe it won't be that long until I gain my creativity back hehe
THANK YOU ALL
YOU'RE THE BEST Q 3 Q ~♥
P.S. on another note, turns out my hand doesn't hurt at all when I draw, even tho it still hurts occasionally and the bruise is still there and all-- so I guess I /will/ be drawing after all hm~
Gotta get back on track with everything~
note: I'm complaining so if you don't wanna read about a whiny shou, feel free to move on
tbh I've been struggling with this for quite some time now, but during the last days it's finally dawned on me what a big issue this actually might be--
So for idek the past weeks I guess, I've noticed how I've been in some kind of design art block thingy whatever--
I can draw just fine, but I can't design anything for the life of me-
I thought taht was ok-- I thought that would pass cause I tend to have that
Well, I was wrong-
It's been weeks and I did everything I know that works against such blocks for me-- but literally nothing changed-- rather I think it only got worse--
I tried to not think about it and don't stress about it and do other stuff to get my mind off things and relax and try again with a clear mind-- and it was super fun doing other stuff and all-- so no forceful atmosphere anywhere--
but still whenever I try to go back to designing, my mind goes blank-
there is not a single idea or thought
I tried to look at stuff that inspires me or check out new things--
but it won't work--
I really tried /everything/
There is nothing left that I could do
But as if a design block wasn't bad enough already, a few days ago I finally realized that it's not only that--
but that slowly but surely I lost the ability to create characters--
be it their design, or their info-
like-- I have an adoptable I really really really love and wanna work on-- so I look at him--
and my mind goes blank again-
I ask myself "What's his name?"
I ask myself "What kind of person is he?"
I ask myself "Is there anything at all you can imagine for him?"
I swear this is driving me insane--
I've tried literally anything-- from listening to music to watching stuff to reading to thinking of attributes I would like my ideal partner to have to idek just looking at stuff or characters I like but-- it's as if everything I liked suddenly lost its appeal to me--
nothing is "worth liking" anymore--
I go like "oh yeah that's cool" but I feel indifferent--
nothing really catches my interest anymore--
Before I really used to get hella pumped for some stuff like certain rp groups or adoptables and my mind was overflowing with ideas for characters or designs or plots, personalities etc.
and now-- all of that is just-- gone---
and I honestly have no idea why-
there must be some kind of trigger, but I can't find it-
and I can't find a solution either--
Trust me when I say I tried everything and nothing worked-- this is horribly frustrating--
because I came to realize a few minutes ago how grave this is for me--
if I can't come up with characters or design characters or other stuff-- I don't have any reason to keep drawing--
I already kinda took a time-out from drawing anyway due to school and other stuff and now my contused hand [which will be better in a few days so technically I could draw again]
but not even a break helped--
And it's not like anything is bothering me either-- of course issues irl or with friends often are reasons for this kind of blocks-- but everything is running smoothly--
I just-- don't see a reason to keep drawing if it's not for my love of creating characters--
My reason to draw was to get all these ideas out of my mind and onto paper--
I started drawing because of that and this will be the reason to stop--
and honestly I'm just fucking scared that I will end up utterly apathetic towards all of this and stop drawing forever--
that's the last thing I'd ever want--
but I'm just at a loss
Yah sorry for being whiny but idk this just really really bugs me--
Fri Jul 4, 2014, 7:11 PM
Ok since apparently my defintion of 'oriental clothing' is different from the majority --
Let me apologize and elaborate on my defintion:
When I say 'oriental' I mean rather traditional [ancient] arabic / egyptian than asian.
So I meant to say that the characters should wear arabic / egyptian - inspired clothing, not chinese or japanese inspired stuff mixed with urban / street style
Idk all my life whenever somebody spoke of the orient or oriental clothing, everybody agreed that it was like arabic / egyptian and everything between it if you know what I mean--
so I hope this clears up the misunderstanding and sorry for the inconvenience
It's just that the 'Orient' includes the countries from north Africa over to the southwest edge of Asia -- so yeah orz
AAH EVERYONE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LARGE INTEREST YOU'VE SHOWN FOR MY LITTLE IDEA q u q
I've now picked 4 people to help me mod this group in the future-- it was so hard to pick, seriously cries
Please don't feel bad if I didn't pick you okay?
You can always apply when the group opens!
And I'd love to see some of you during the opening hnngg--
I've decided to actually go through with this spray can wars rp group idea I've had before
so now I am searching for some people that would like to help me mod this group!
Here are the current details on the idea again since some parts changed:
It will be set in an oriental city, a huge, world-renowned metropolis with advanced technology, set in the present time
The city used to be a very peaceful place where everything was pretty much perfect and harmonic, a somewhat 'too-good-to-be-true' kind of city.
The citizens were so lulled by the harmony and peace that they never considered behaving any different or trying new things as everything worked flawlessly already.
Yet one day a few certain people realized that living in paradisical peace and harmony could not be everything there is to life; as the saying goes "If humans don't have problems in their lives, they'll create some".
Thus the trend of street art [the definition of street art including both, graffiti and the actual street art] sparked and the few that wanted to do something different turned to drawing on walls, pavements, roofs and all kinds of other things with no restrictions, ignoring whatever rules or laws there were as to act our their freedom.
This movement attracted more and more people and it turned into a real problem for the government to have so many people disturbing the peace by doing such 'dirty' things without consent.
Yet as if it was not enough with this already, things became worse; the two friends that were pretty much the detonator of the street art trend grew apart in their mind-sets, one who believed to still behave righteous and considerate, the other who was determined to do whatever he pleased regardless of the consequences.
Thus a rift occured in the street art scene and soon the street artists each began to side with one of the initiators, splitting the large group of people into two gangs.
From that moment on things only became worse as the gangs clashed more and more often due to their drastic differences in behavior and beliefs and thus a street art war was soon upon the city.
But it was not just mere street art.
It began with painting walls, but at some point a new kind of spray cans was introduced to each gang by a wealthy, powerful, foreign company; would one use these spray cans to paint, one could make their drawings come to life.
As you can imagine, this was the true beginning of chaos.
Wow that's enough for the setting I guess--
Now some more info:
► Characters would wear a mix of oriental and urban/street style clothes
► The righteous gang is represented by cold colors, the rowdy gang by warm colors
► Each gang has three leader-ish kind of people: one initiator who is pretty much the uber boss of them all and two vices to help them [this means since the spots of the two initiators are already taken, I am looking for four other mods]
► Each character will be represented by a certain color which you choose beforehand [via color code] and based on this choice you will also have to join the gang that matches your color. This color represents them as a street artist and will be their most frequently used color in their art. It's like a trademark [apart from their signature]
► Upon joining one of the gangs as a street artist [and yes you MUST join one of the gangs if you wanna be a street artist, there are no neutrals] you receive three of those special spray cans; black, white and the color you chose before to represent your character. For the time being your character will only be able to use these three colors in their paintings. [you might be able to use normal spray cans of any color though if you don't want your drawing to come to life idk about that yet, but you always have to put your signature under the painting anyway which can only be done in black, white and the color you chose]
► The signature of a street artist is one other things with which people can identify your character. Since street artists stay anonymous when painting as to avoid troubles with the government, the only way of 'identifying' street artists is pretty much by their signature. The signature can look like anything really, you'll have to get really creative here
► The group will have some kind of point system since the gangs are battling each other and people may earn money or smth so they can buy new spray cans and add colors to their available palette to paint stuff
Uuhh yeah I think that's pretty much all for now-- I have some more tiny side infos noted down, but this is the main stuff you should know I guess--
So if you're interested in modding this group with me, feel free to comment here and tell me so~
I'd really love to have some support ; o ;
Just know that you must be active as a mod as in help me lay out details and future events and all-- I need you to have time to work on this group properly
And being active in the actual group will also be appreciated--
I will pick 4 other mods -- i-if there are enough people who're interested of course---
Sun Jun 15, 2014, 4:27 PM
Hey guys would you help me?
Long story short: I need all of you to help me cheer up a friend and show her what an amazing person she is
Because some pricks are telling her different
Whether you know her or not, whether you watch her or not, would you help out?
All you gotta do is leave a nice, sweet comment on her profile for me ; u ;
just do it, okay?
It's for the greater good ♥
Sun Jun 15, 2014, 10:13 AM
Peeps [including myself] thought their art got stolen from that website while it's actually probs just some weird search enging spreading viruses
PORN SITE ART THEFT (NOT REALLY!) Warning: Please read everything before commenting. Most of you have been very considerate but some people have had a hard time getting the message. I can't help every, single one of you understand. I'm just stating my findings. That is all.
I will not give you a link to the site. It's against dA policy to share links to pornographic content!
however if you look hard through the comments some people have mentioned it. Still, I really recommend just ignoring it.
So I woke up today and saw that this was really blowing up in my messages.
Basically it's about a porn site that seems to be displaying art from various deviants and thus predictably causing some confusion and outrage. Despite the fact that there was a chance that the site might be armed with viruses I decided to go ahead and give it a look and here's the important part;
DO NOT VISIT THE SITE.
idek anymore and I don't really mind either-- I'm rather amused anyway pf--
p.s. I didn't get a virus, I already double-triple checked my laptop
Sun Jun 8, 2014, 12:21 PM
So I figured that this might actually lift my spirits ay--
What is YOUR personal Summer Song 2014 ?
Like those that make you finally feel like it's truly summer--
Just leave a link to whichever song[s] represent your summer this year in a comment below ♥
I haven't found my personal summer song yet //cries
So I'd love to see some of yours!
Sun Jun 8, 2014, 7:26 AM
Thank you so much for all of your advices ; o ;
I'll definitely try to do accordingly ah
I just hope I can shake this off quickly again ahaha ... I don't exactly have the time to stress about stuff like this rn with all my exams ahead orz
yeah I'm just wondering-- what do you do if scars that you've received in the past come haunting you again?
And usually you manage to brush them off and keep on going but-- this time you just break down
I'm just in a really shitty situation atm because one of the biggest regrets of my life came back around to torture me and I'm scared of making the same mistake again and I tend to shut myself off--
Also my family isn't really making it better ahaha--
I'm just wondering if there are any general advices you guys can give me?
For now I'm just a grumpy dork listening to some rock music because I always do that to blast away the bad thoughts haha orz
I just wanna get better quickly again-- orz
Sat Jun 7, 2014, 6:58 PM
ok so I've been meaning to change my skype account for like forever and now I finally did it--
I will no longer be on my old skype account
I won't transfer all my contacts to the new account either
So for everyone who still cares to have me in their skype contacts, please comment below / note me w/e and I will note you with my new skype
Mon Jun 2, 2014, 11:43 AM
Okay yes exactly as the headline says, June is gonna be a bumpy ride for me
All my exams for this semester are set in June [yes all the way from the 5th to the 30th]
And as if that wouldn't be enough already, my teachers have decided to bury me under schoolwork and homework today and I'm probably gonna die along the way trying to finish everything in time
That's why I'm just gonna announce that I won't be as active, especially replying rps
[and art submissions only the events that are due when I find time orz]
I'll try to be online as frequently as possible and reply comments or whatever I find the time for, but for example today I won't reply anything anymore because I have loads to do for tomorrow and will head straight to bed after
For anyone who wants to check, I've included an Exam List on my profile for everybody to view if they like
It's also a little checklist for myself so I don't forget any upcoming exam
I'll make sure to write a OK! behind the exam once I'm done with it--
But please for now-- bear with me, especially my rp partners
I'm gonna try my best but school comes first
Thank you ♥
Sat May 17, 2014, 10:06 PM
Reason why shou needs dem :
I wanna make a super group and that's so freaking expensive ohmygosh orz
The chibis would look like this [I'm willing to do NSFW & couples]:
Price: 1000 [per character | comes with transparent bg]
The b/w bust-ups would be in a style like this one:
Price: 400 [per character | comes with white bg]
Total amount of : 4408 / ~5700
There's a donation pool on my profile in case you wanna help me reach my goal ; 7 ;
I won't save/reserve spots
Dunno about the slots yet
You may buy both if you want to
Just send me a note if you're interested ; u ;
P.S. won't be opening regular commishes anytime soon so this is a chance for some of you also the prices might change later as in go up so ya--
Will close these commissions once I reach the amount of points I need Q u Q
Sat Apr 12, 2014, 3:06 AM
OneNightStar here = u = )/
Yus, just wanted to notify everybody so that you don't get confused
I changed my username
from now on
you'll find me as
Have been thinking about it a looooong time and finally did it--
Not only here though--
I've changed my username everywhere I guess-- everywhere important--
plus my email--
so ya--- we all will have to get used to this haha but I like it~
Wed Apr 2, 2014, 3:05 PM
You all remember this idea I had?
About the superhero rp group?
We made it happen, guys <33
I hope everybody is just as pumped as we are hehe
Grand Opening is on the 1st of May
I HOPE TO SEE LOTS OF APPS <333
Okayyyyyy--- so since I am officially on Easter break right now-- I guess I should be a little more active on here again-- even tho I have lots of school stuff to do |||OTL
Still gomen for being more or less inactive for the past weeks @ A @ ;;
Anyways-- I was thinking of making a new RP group and today me and my irl friends [which don't draw weeps] had an idea that sparked my interest quite a lot--
What if there was a rp group revolving around young people [perhaps ages 14-30 or so] who have all gained a super power, but that super power is based on the one thing they fear the most?
E.g. you're really afraid of heights, but you can fly or simply tend to lift off the ground whenever you don't concentrate or something
Ikd just a quick example--
I've got a few ideas how to incorporate this into a setting that'd work for a RP group, but I've yet to actually decide on one / am not convinced of my ideas, so yeah-- it's a huge WIP
I really wanna make this group-- unless a group based on this already exists? ; 7 ;
Well-- if not, then I'd love to seek for mods already-- so we can lay out a precise setting together-- without plot holes cries
So yeah, if you're interest in becoming a mod or would just love to join such a rp group, it'd be awesome if you could leave a comment ; v ;
I might pick a few peeps later on then to help me with this orz
Also I wanna see how many people are actually interested in such a group since it'd be a waste if nobody would want to join Q u Q
[IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE COMMENT; I WILL PICK SOME]
Tue Mar 25, 2014, 3:39 PM
Please don't be confused if you visit my gallery next time [and are a fan of my rp groups characters and art] I've left a lot of rp groups, stashed the art away and even requested to close two of my own groups permanently
I've done so since I know I won't ever be active again, gomen ; v ;
But I might do a new rp group in the future in case anyone is interested [see newest poll]
Mon Mar 17, 2014, 10:40 AM
... you've got a new principal at your school and she's a serious asshole?
She's never considerate with the students NOR the teachers or other employees.
She always yells at everyone and treats the teachers like shit.
She never compromises, never listens to other suggestions but her own ideas.
She thinks she can do whatever she pleases and she treats everyone around her like lower beings.
Many teachers dislike her or are even FRIGHTENED to talk to her.
Many teachers think about leaving the school and change to another one just BECAUSE OF HER.
The teachers have it a lot worse than the students, they're miserable as hell.
But they can't speak up because they're all afraid.
They need to get a good appraisal from the principal or else they will have difficulties ever changing school's again.
Or even worse, they'll be fired.
Our teachers don't talk much about the subject, too scared the students might lose a wrong word about it to anyone, but they imply things every now and then and make it clear how horrible the situation is.
Our current principal only got the job because she had priority, not because of her competence.
There's our vice principal and we always thought she was a terribly vice principal, but even she gets into arguments with the new principal and that really means a hell lot--
So I am wondering-- what can we do about this?
I want to help my teachers-- I care about my school a lot--
The new principal wants to eradicate the musical classes of my school which have always been the flagship of my school and have always kept the niveau up [you get what I mean]
If she takes those classes away-- my school will drop down to the lowest level--
I'm just scared-- I don't want this to happen because I love my school and my teachers-- many teachers that I really care about are suffering under the new principal and I don't just want to sit still and watch them leave ; H ;
If any of you have any useful ideas what we as students [or parents] could do to improve this situation aka. get the principal to leave my school, every suggestion via comment would be appreciated
Perhaps we could collect evidence and statements from teachers and other employees, but keep everything anonymous and secret-- I honestly don't know-- we can't let this get out into the open because if we do, students, parents and teachers will be in huge trouble-- but we NEED to do something about this-- anything--
Sat Feb 15, 2014, 8:21 AM
Yeeee I finally revamped my weebly hehe--
Now it's all in the style of my dA/tumblr hhhhh---
This is my NEW button:
I'D LOVE TO ADD YOUR WEEBLY TO MY AFFILIATES, SO JUST LEAVE ME A LINK IN THE COMMENTS ♥
Any weebly is fine really * ^ *
Sun Feb 2, 2014, 2:59 PM
quite busy, not gonna open anytime soon weeps
EVERYTHING UNDER CONSTRUCTION
Please read everything before you order, thank you.
♥ Read everything before noting me + follow the instructions given
♥ Do not rush me [I am quite slow most of the time, but you will definitely receive your commission]
♥ Do not pay unless I have asked you to do so [send points / commission widget / paypal]
♥ Payment has to be made within 24 hours after ordering
♥ You may order different styles
♥ Only one slot of each style per person
♥ You may use the commissioned art e.g. on you profile etc. BUT PLEASE CREDIT ME
♥ strange skincolor
♥ taurs [any kind of really]
♥ NSFW [Yaoi / Yuri / Hetero]
♥ anthro [depends on the character, I might decline the commission though]
♥ extreme body hair
♥ old people [gomen]
How to order:
Send me a Note entitled "Chibi Commish" [Notes without that title will be ignored]
Include this form in the Note [Notes without this form / not correctly filled will be ignored]
★Username: [your dA username]
★Style: [whichever style of the ones mentioned above you want] [if Naked Chibi, NSFW Y/N ?]
★Price: [depends on the style, please calculate the final price already]
★Paypal email: [in case you will pay with Paypal]
★No. of Characters: [depends on the style]
★Reference[s]: [clear references of the character(s)]
★Brief Info: [personality, SHORT info about the character(s)]
★Pose/Expression: [in case you wish for a certain pose/expression] [if Naked Chibi, sexual pose Y/N?]
★Extra: [in case there's anything else I need to know about the character(s)]
Why don't you respond to my note?
Because you didn't follow the instructions of how to order a commission from me [see above]
Sat Feb 1, 2014, 7:30 PM
Well, I kind of ended up talking about this topic with a friend and I am really curious, what is your personal reason to draw?
What motivates you to draw?
I'm just really interested in hearing this from others-- so just leave a comment ; v ;
For me-- my reason why I draw is mainly because it gives me peace
It makes me feel calm [although it can also quite frustrate me haha] and it's my way of letting out steam
It balances me out internally I guess?
And then, ever since I started posting art actively online, I've also added all the people who support me to my reason why I draw--
The people who enjoy my art-- I really want to make them happy by keeping on drawing--
I love all of you too much to stop haha--
Of course I also need to let out my creativity somehow cause otherwise I'd explode--
Drawing the way I do is just my way of expressing myself-- and I can't imagine stopping, to be honest
I've often tried to start new hobbies -- but they were always killed off by drawing haha--
There's nothing I like more than drawing, really--
So yeah-- that's a short summary of my reasons to draw -- I wonder what it is like for others ; v ;
Wed Jan 29, 2014, 4:33 AM
Uguuuuhhhh--- so many sweet birthday wishes aaahhhh--
Thank you so, so, soooooo much for all those super cute comments aah-- they really sweetened my day a lot <333
I'm definitely going to reply all of them somehow ... I think
As for how my birthday went-- it was totally awesome homg-- best birthday in a loong, looooooong time haha
First all of my classes got cancelled but one-- so I decided to skip that one and stay home //SLAPPED
No school on my birthday, sure, why not |D
In the afternoon my grandparents and my uncle came over to have cake and celebrate a little and another friend also crashed at my place to congratulate me and stayed for the cake haha
had invited me to his place later in the evening, because he had something planned for me--
And that ended up in us sneaking up onto the rooftop of the skyscraper he lives in and we watched the stars --
But the actual surprise was that he talked his little brother into firing the last firework rockets he had left over from New Year's Eve haha--
It was so sweet = 7 =
Such a nice thing to do, really--
AND ON TOP OF THAT BOTH OF MY GUYFRIENDS TOLD ME I LOOK SEXY IN MY NEW BOOTS /////
For anyone who doesn't know, I got myself a pair of red cowboy boots as a birthday present haha
//tosses quickly taken pictures
Nnggh-- I swear I adore these boots-- they fit perfectly--
And that's how I went to school today haha--
Even my other two guyfriends who were VERY doubtful of the idea of me wearing cowboy boots took back everything they said and agreed that they look good on me pffft--
And EVERYONE was staring-- after all such boots aren't exactly common in Germany :'D
Now I'm off for a little break, tomorrow and Friday there's no school hehe = u =
Seriously this week is the best <3333
I hope that everybody is having a just as great time as I am ♥
Sun Jan 26, 2014, 11:28 PM
BEST. DAY. THIS. YEAR. SO. FAR.
CAN I JUST LOVE YOU ALL PLEASE?
I'D HUG EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU RIGHT NOW IF I COULD AAAHH--
SO MY SCHOOL GOT CANCELLED TODAY BECAUSE SOMEONE BROKE IN
JUST ONE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY
SCHOOL JUST-- DOESN'T HAPPEN LMFAO
EARLY BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM HEAVEN I SUPPOSE
AND THE COWBOY BOOTS I ORDERED FOR MYSELF AS A PRESENT HAVE ALSO ARRIVED
OUTSIDE ARE TONS OF SNOW AND IT'S NOT TOO COLD SO PERFECT WEATHER TO WALK
THIS DORK HERE TREATS ME TO LUNCH TODAY AS AN EARLY PRESENT
AND GOSH COULD THIS DAY BE ANY BETTER?!
I'M IN SUCH A FREAKING GOOD MOOD MAN--
SORRY I JUST HAD TO SHARE THIS
I HOPE EVERYONE ELSE WILL HAVE A SUPER DUPER MEGA AWESOME DAY TODAY
NIGHTY OUT ♥
I'M WALKING ON SUNSHINE WOOOAH ~
Sun Jan 12, 2014, 3:13 AM
Did that title catch your attention?
I'm not joking though, this is about free art --
But you have to do me a little favor-- it's something anyone could do, I guess--
IT'S A SUPER COOL NEW RP GROUP WHERE PEOPLE GO PARTYING WITH MASKS OR ANIMAL HEADS ON !
COME AND JOIN ME AND MY BBY VALENTIN IF YOU WANT TO RP WITH HIM ; 7 ;
THE SETTING IS SO AWESOME OKAY SO COME
And now about that 'Free Art' reward:
Upon joining, every new character will receive an icon like these from me ; v ; [but only for a limit time, so join soon!]
I kinda enjoy making them so yeah-- if you join, you'll get one ♥